Dear Jaime-
Thank you for sharing such a personal and heart wrenching experience. I lost my father at the age of 66 (back in 1988), I was 26 at the time...and was responsible for his care while trying to raise a young family of my own. I loved him, and revered him in many ways...he was definitely the Patriarch of our family.
Last year, I lost my mother at the age of 84...and I've felt her loss like no other...but also relived my fathers loss all over again.
Now is the time to cherish and lean on your family/loved ones more than ever. If you're spiritual...that will also offer some relief. If you need a friend, I raise my hand. PM me if you want to talk and we'll trade numbers. I know how tough these times can be.
From my family to yours...and from me to you...thoughts, prayers, and much affection and comfort.
Take good care,
-Andrew